This weekend has been less than fun…Paul has been having a
very rough time. He is in a lot of pain
and is losing weight…now at 154 lbs…It is extremely hard to watch. I keep hoping that on Tuesday they will have
some kind of bright news for us. He
needs some kind of help…and I feel helpless…
I was having a really hard day on Friday. I didn’t feel well…I was very tired…worried
about Paul…just angry at the world kind of day.
I was even more saddened when I heard about the children in
Connecticut…how incredibly heart-breaking…in fact, there really are no words to
describe it. My heart aches for the
families of those killed. I can honestly
say, Friday is the heaviest my heart has ever felt…between worrying about my
husband and hearing about those children…It is been so hard not to ask, "why"?
When I was walking home from getting the kids at school on
Friday, my friend could tell I was having a hard time. She stopped me and asked me how I was….I am
grateful for a dear friend who let me have a melt-down with her. We cried together about everything….it was
therapeutic to let it all out. I just
feel like I have to be strong…it is hard to be strong…I feel like my whole
world has been turned upside down…I am losing my husband and there is nothing I
can do about it…I am trying to have hope…it is just very hard at the moment…I
know I can do this…I just don’t want to…but I have to.
Sophie had strep throat last week and then Paul and I got
lovely colds. I am worried about him
because he is coughing pretty hard and has been running a fever. He says he doesn’t feel like he needs to go
to Insta-care…we will see…
I ended up at the ER this morning. Friday night I started getting pains in my
left side. I recognized those
pains. I have a disease called
diverticulosis…when you have a “flare-up” it is diverticulitis…basically it is
an infection in your bowels…yep it’s painful.
I did not eat anything all day yesterday and only drank liquids. I was hoping it would calm down on its own. I could tell last night that I was probably
going to need treatment. I was going to
drive myself to the hospital, but Paul said it was not a good idea. So, I called my sister at 5:00 this morning
and asked her to take me to the hospital, because I knew they would need to do
a CT. Paul is in no condition to take me
to the hospital and sit there…besides someone needed to be with the kids.
Thankfully the ER wasn’t busy this morning and they got me
right back. They ran blood work, and a
CT. Yep, I was right…I have
diverticulitis. Fortunately, they are
not making me stay in the hospital…last time I was in the hospital for a couple
days. They are having me take
antibiotics at home…if they don’t work…then we’ll reassess the situation. The biggest thing is I have to get it under
control, so that I don’t get an abscess, which can lead to peritonitis….now
that would be bad…
Life has been a little overwhelming this weekend…I am hoping
for brighter days ahead. Thank you to
everyone for your continued love and support!
Sandra, we are so sorry...hope you feel better soon! You are all in our thoughts and prayers!
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